Free Story: Carry Your Own Light

Keep You Own Light

By dusk, Bay Street had buttoned on its cut-out stars and jar candles, and the air carried a pier-metal tang like spray dried on glass. Kids bunched at the sawhorses, cheeks painted quick, capes tripping their knees.

Evan told his daughter to hold tight. “Kay,” she said, the way she always did when she was brave. The cardboard lantern in her hands had a tea light trembling in its belly. She breathed on it by accident and the little flame leaned, then caught, stubborn.

Up at the courthouse, the bell tried to ring and only coughed. People laughed, thin. The laugh went up and came back wrong, as if it had brushed the underside of the fog.

They were new to Caldera Bay. The town had parties—pie tents, hay rides, all the usual flyers with clip-art ghosts—but it also had habits nobody wrote down. Evan had been warned by a cashier, by the guy who read meters, by their neighbor with the ceramic geese on her porch: carry your own light. If you drop it, make it yours again. If someone offers you extra, don’t take it. If the wind says count to ten—count to ten and stop.

He smiled off the superstitions. But he counted anyway.

The parade formed in lanes. Ten across, the teenager with the megaphone said, then “sorry—ten at a time, ten across later,” and laughed at himself. Kay’s lantern bobbed, a pale apple in a tub. Evan straightened her hood and felt her small heat through the fabric.

A man in a clean coat, too clean for a street full of sticky cider, drifted along the second row. He wore a little silver pin shaped like a bird’s wing. Not a costume. He moved like someone checking a list no one else could see.

“Pretty light,” he said to Kay, voice sweet as sugar on metal. “You want help keeping it?” He cupped a hand as if to shield her candle from the breeze.

“We’re good,” Evan said without thinking why.

The man’s smile pressed at the edges, unwrinkling nothing. “Say you don’t need help,” he told Kay, not Evan. “Say, ‘I keep my light.’”

Kay parroted: “I keep my light.”

“Good,” the man said, but his eyes were not on Kay. They were on Evan’s mouth, waiting for something to fall out.

A woman with long dark hair and chalk dust on her knuckles brushed past, quick as a mother cutting between a stranger and her kid. She put her palm under Kay’s lantern to steady it, then drew a thin white line with a stub of chalk on the curb at their feet. “If it goes out,” she told them, “breathe together. You two. Not him. Strike fresh.” Her voice had a rasp, like she’d been spending it on other people all night.

“Who are you?” Evan asked, but she’d already stepped away, chalking ten little boxes on the pavement, numbering the corners small with a clerk’s tidy hand.

It got colder by a degree no forecast had mentioned. The breaker wind had learned the streets, found the alleyways, came back thin and precise. Evan pulled Kay closer with an elbow. She leaned into him with the automatic trust of eight years old.

The man with the wing pin drifted again, smiling at other children the way a lake smiles: all surface.

“Count to ten!” the megaphone boy called. “And stop at—uh—ten!”

People chuckled and counted because counting keeps your mind from inventing other things to do.

A gust slipped mean between buildings. The flame in Kay’s lantern stuttered. The man in the clean coat leaned—so helpful, so near—and blew the gentlest little breath in the world.

Her light went out.

The loss felt too big. The paper went dark and hollow; Evan’s skin crawled—stepped on a stair that wasn’t there. Kay looked up, startled, more confused than scared—for now.

The clean coat showed teeth. “There, see?” He held out a long match, already struck. “Let me—”

“No,” the chalk woman said from nowhere, iron under the rasp. She was already lowering a coffee tin that smoked faintly, schoolroom yellow. “Owners only,” she told Evan and Kay. “Together.”

Kay tried to be brave. “Dad?”

“I’m here,” he said. He forced his mouth to shape the words the way the woman had told his daughter. “We keep our light.”

They bent. Kay breathed. Evan breathed. The woman touched a fresh match to the wick. The paper moon took it with a quick, thankful gulp. Kay’s face bloomed.

The clean coat’s smile thinned like paper left in rain.

Evan’s phone buzzed. He glanced down and felt his stomach drop: the square that held Kay’s birthday in the pediatric clinic app had gone blank. Unknown Age, it said. The school portal spun and spun. His contacts list showed Kay as —.

“Hey,” he said sharply, at nobody, at the night. “Hey.”

The chalk woman didn’t look at his phone. She was already drawing a second line on the curb, right under the first. “Write her name,” she said softly. “Say it out loud. Not for me.”

He fumbled for the pen she offered—a black felt thing scarred with teeth marks. His handwriting looked like falling. He wrote. He said Kay’s full name like a prayer, like a password. The woman sprinkled a pinch of salt along the chalk. The grains hissed, a cat warning.

He refreshed the app. The square snapped back. 8. The portal filled with her school picture, gap-tooth grin and one hair clip crooked.

Kay didn’t notice any of it. She was busy breathing on her newly lit candle and laughing because the flame ducked in and out like a shy fish.

“Good,” the chalk woman whispered to nobody, and moved on, drawing boxes, tapping signs, not smiling once.

The clean coat smoothed his lapel pin like it needed comfort. He drifted toward a boy at the plastic bowl on the next porch, where a tongue depressor said TAKE ONE in a helpful hand. Evan watched the boy glance at his mother, take one fun-size, then—because he was eleven, because there were a hundred little eyes and only two tired big ones—slide a second into his sleeve.

The air didn’t change. The night didn’t explode. But the boy’s phone lit and forgot him. Unknown where his name should be in his own group chat. He looked at the screen, baffled; his mouth opened and no teacher name came out, no mother, no himself.

“Put one back,” a man in a gray jacket said gently, the kind of voice that stops dogs without making them sad. “Say your name to the bowl while you do it. Like you mean it.”

The boy did. The bowl grinned its dumb plastic grin. The boy’s phone remembered him like a magnet finding metal.

“Cheap trick,” the clean coat murmured, but he had moved on to richer water: a little girl holding a lantern with ELEVEN scribbled on her sleeve in marker. He lifted the lantern by the wire—only a little, just enough for her breath to swing away and kill the flame. The girl looked at her mother; her mother looked at her phone; the birthday square blinked off and on and off again like a slow cruelty.

Evan didn’t want to watch. He couldn’t look away. The chalk woman arrived late to that one, too, pressing a strip of paper into a shaking hand, touching a match to a wick, sprinkling salt like it had meaning. The flame caught. The date came back slower than anyone wanted, but it came back.

Kay tugged Evan’s sleeve. “Dad? The man with the pin. He smells like machine oil.”

“Stay by me,” he said, and he heard his own father in the order, alive for a heartbeat and gone.

The lanes moved. “Four!” the megaphone boy called. “Five!” A toddler tried to climb the sawhorse and a dozen hands steadied him without asking who belonged to him. Evan’s chest hurt for reasons not entirely about fear.

They turned down Alder where the porches stacked close like teeth. A bowl at 236 had PLEASE BE HONEST—WE’RE TRUSTING YOU! taped over the TAKE ONE. Kids took two—of course they did. Names fell off phones like stickers losing glue.

A woman in a red knit hat stood in her doorway, face pale from something more than the cold. “The back door,” she told no one in particular. “It was shut. It isn’t now.”

And, as if the town wanted to prove her right out loud, a stroller rattled somewhere inside that house where no wind should live.

“Mom?” a toddler voice called, from behind a door that had been teaching itself to forget.

The man in gray—the gentle one—lifted his hand, that was all. Another woman, not the chalk one, not the knit-hat, someone with a needle between two fingers like it belonged there, looped a salted string through the chain and pulled once. Metal remembered how to be a latch. The mother’s key found purchase. The toddler came out sticky-cheeked and furious at being scared. Everybody made a sound they’d hate to hear again in the night.

The clean coat did not clap. He did not look angry. He looked patient.

He had collectors: two younger men in dark windbreakers, moving the way water moves when you open a tap. They guided children to bowls and lantern tails with smiling efficiency, pointing out where the candy was piled higher, where the flames were easiest to reach. They never touched. They never had to.

“Don’t,” Evan told Kay when she reached for a second bar because her friend said it was fine. She narrowed her eyes at him, insulted, but she put one back. She said her name to the air with unnecessary drama because she was eight and because she had seen the boy in the hoodie go pale. The bowl didn’t care. That was the scariest part: objects were the same; the people changed around them.

At the corner, the crowd narrowed to a line. A white seam of chalk crossed the street where Bay met Alder. Someone had sprinkled salt so thin it looked like breath caught on the ground. You could hear it, if you wanted to: a whisper-hiss, like winter trying on a new coat.

The clean coat and his runners set tins with little clicks. Paper slips peeped over the edges: children’s names in tidy hands, a blue ribbon, a brass key scratched with something like Bridge. The man in gray read what was offered out loud, and sometimes the page underneath coughed itself free and slid to the brick as if it had changed its mind about being part of things. People didn’t cheer. People watched.

The chalk woman taped a sheet under the courthouse board. It didn’t have a paragraph; it had three words: Tonight: audit.

The bell tried again and failed again, a breath caught sideways.

The clean coat smiled at the town. At all of them. He put two coins on the chalk as if to pay for his right to be there. The woman with the needle laid ten coins in a row next to his—edge to edge, a straight line. People touched them, one after the other. I keep my name, a father said. I keep my child, a mother said, not loudly and not for permission. I keep the way, the man in gray said, which made no sense to Evan and made him want to cry.

The big dog Evan had seen only in passing—gray muzzle, heavy head, eyes like old wood—walked up and set that head across the chalk and salt for one slow count. The street felt the weight and settled. The clean coat’s smile faltered.

Evan looked down at Kay’s lantern. Her flame held. Her date held. Her name held. The wind tested the paper and left it alone. He realized he was counting in his head, unhelpfully, and made himself stop at ten. Kay was counting too. Children learn fast.

“Dad,” she whispered. “Can I carry it all the way home?”

The clean coat was already turning toward the breakwater, runners falling in like commas. He had the look of a man who had expected to be fed and had been offered bread and water instead.

“You’ll carry it,” Evan said. He didn’t have to force his voice steady. “And if it falls out?”

“We breathe together,” she said. “We strike fresh.”

“And if someone tries to help?”

She wrinkled her nose at him. “We say no.”

He laughed, brief and stupid with relief. “Okay. Good.”

They walked. He didn’t put his phone away. He didn’t need to look at it; he needed it in his hand like a talisman, like proof the air behaved. The chalk boxes scuffed under their shoes. The white line of salt whispered under the tire of a stroller and left a clean squeak.

At Baker’s Alley, Kay paused. “Bruiser,” she said, because that was what the whole town called the big dog. He was sitting in front of the service door like a statue of patience, looking at the handle like it owed him money. The door did not open for him. He put his head down on his paws and pretended not to care.

“Tomorrow,” Evan said to Kay, not to the dog, not to the door. The word felt like the first warm thing all night.

“Tomorrow,” Kay said, and lifted her lantern high, as if to light the way for a great and dignified animal who did not need help and would never admit it.

The bell above the courthouse didn’t ring. It drew a clean breath and held it like a lesson. The wind pressed its tang on Evan’s teeth and left, unsatisfied.

He carried his own light home. He kept counting in his head and stopping at ten. And when he slept, he dreamed of a door that had learned the word later and meant it.

In the morning, he would walk Kay past the courthouse steps and show her the chalk ghost of the line and tell her what the town had tried to teach him in one night: that some things don’t want blood, they want a sentence, and you should be careful which ones you say.

But for now, the lantern burned, and the street breathed, and Caldera Bay let them go.

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